Then we went to zzz together :D... of course i fall asleep bfore him...Always... when he is whispering good night and stuff... half way thru i fall asleep -blush- Those words works like aroma therapy to me ^^ which make you feel relax, secure and eventually the light sweetness ^^.. so i fall asleep again its 4.30am that time...woke up at 8am realize hunny still zzz away so i went to scroll around in the living room..missing hunny :( doesn't know why its like addiction towards each other.. I wanna hear his voice know that he is fine ^^ his smile never fails to brighten my day.. i don't wish for anything as long he is happy ^^
Roy and dd going sentosa but i had to do packing and actually i don't like suntanning and i always avoid outdoor activities under the hot sun...and also i had no time to pack bside that saturday so i told them maybe i can meet for dinner...suppose to be ang mo kio but end up roy called me saying change location to yishun which is so far and roy says dd maybe going home so i says maybe we arrange once more when ying dd roy jack everyone can make it... it's been a long time... i hope tis meeting comes bfore roy go ns...
Then when he woke up :P we play pic taking o.O cos i wan alot pictures of him so he took about 20 of him ^^ :P... the one i like most...
My hunny :D i love his eyes all the time.... then he laughing away.. he said " Hunny I took another picture it's sooo funny looks like im about to commit sucide haha"
I laugh so badly when i saw this..
About to commit sucide? haha -.- he was saying he have no idea his expression turn out so sad... :P ... cute!!!
Im leaving to HK soon, which he did mention in his blog that he have no idea how to cope it...then bfore i left to KL -.- i realize he took 20 secret shots of me :S...
I will be back and talk to you immediately hunny ^^ i promise... I love you. I had a nice weekend.. Thanks alot my dear ^^
Mum made dumpling :O...red string - red bean ... yummy :D
Then after awhile he show me a background...which is the moon and the sea... then i said it's very nice :O.. then he added a couple at the right ^^ and the sentence "Some people may think that this is a dream...But it is my reality.." and navigate option all by himself, he down with cold and stomach wasn't feeling good he is a sick teddy :( and he spend 4 hours doing that... from 12am - 4am his time... he said he wanna make something for me... Im so happy and touched :( ... and i really love it soo much...
My life is much better now...I smile every minute and sec...
What he mention in his blog when i was not around
First of all, I believe and feel in a couple since you both are sharing eachother's love its kind of like exchanging half of eachother's heart. Therefore when your other half is not with you, you tend to feel incomplete. My hunny and I have a 7 hour time difference, she is +7 from (GMT+1). Therefore that means that we have to bend the rules of our own time zone a little to accustom eachother, kind of like two people meeting in a mutual time zone. Usually in a relationship both of the couple will spend time with eachother on certain days etc although all couples do differ. Carel and I are very different from most relationships, as we will go out of our way to make sure we get every minute even every second we can together. Although we do our best we still have to live in our own timezones, and sleep at different times... This is de-syncronised and causes emotional strain not being able to be together as much, made me very sad today not being able to be with her. She means the world to me as all of you can see. I think im rather fragile actually since I have a cold, might be getting a fever Carel thinks. She's here now so im a lot happier :), and starting to feel normal again (despite cold). She gave me lots of pics of her today ^^, made me very happy :D! Apart from that , I watched Gundam Wing to pass time while my darling wasnt here -.-
I love it so much... and i felt the same way.. Everyday i lead my life with smile and love all because of him... I realize I love him too much getting more and more each day and Im getting pampered alot :P by him... We never gets tired... Even talk till the credit went 0 when Im not in office.....In the night after i put down the phone preparing to sleep i will be tossing around, wondering how's hunny doing? Did he sleep well? Does he miss me? After awhile i will recieve his text msg saying how much he miss me :P... or the next day when i log on... his display message will be "I miss my carel sooo much :(!"
No one ever treat me this way for decades :( ... Everytime i think about the stuff he said to me and do to me... My eyes turns teary. Yes, Tears of joy.... I wish to be by his side... taking care of him... 4am when he finishes the gift for me... He went to bed and want me to be by his side of course i won't leave him... :) He's such a cute thing :P when he suppose to sleep he will goes "Hun, you really make me so happy... i love you so much..." ...Then snoring over the headset ... and i smile everytime i heard his breathe ^^.... But Im afraid i might wake him so sometimes i mute the mic :O... He will goes "Hun? :(" after one minute... hehehehehe
Just wanna say over here we are 7 hours apart from time zone... But i will always spend all my time with you as much as possible...Others might be thinking, it's only been less than one month how can you be sure you love him? I can say right here... I truly love him, as i wanna spend all time with him and the rest of my life with him...Love is something that can't be describe in words.. But feelings...Hun, I love you forever... I will do what i promise and will never never break your heart...You make me so happy too...
Must be a good boy sleep well when im not around.. I know you will be SOOO happy when you see this post ^^... Every single word comes from my heart... You will be my only one... forever.
Bee
The fruit looks like garlic...
I don't dare to eat it -.- so Joanne tried it first...saying it taste alright.. so i tried it.. omg -.- weird! i can't eat it :S.. taste like mild sweetness with milky taste? -_- just really weird... lol... I miss my hunny :( he down with bad cold.. and maybe fever soon... so i asked him to rest and im missing you all the time hunny :(...
Sharing happily
Hunny: I promise i will always devote every part of my life to you as i feel the same way. Im so excited too just thinking about getting to share everything with you. Lots of hugs and kisses, life is going to be wonderful as long as im with u. rest well my darling carel li**** ( his family name) i love u so much forever i promised. from your jonathan ted.
still got alot :P but this one i love the most.. anyway...Jon i love u :D... ^^... muacks!!
Then reach KL at around 11.30pm. Went home for shower then chat on phone with hun until i reach office then talk all the way till morning o.O.. then 5am hun force me to rest my head awhile so he accompany me until 7am work ^^... then he acommpanied me up to 12noon then he went to sleep and he doesn't wan me to hang up the call (skype) when he is sleeping.. cos he say he wanna me to be with him :P.. so i hear his snoring so cute :D... until now :O he's still on call ^^ will end secretly when i off work :).. I miss u :(..
Then went to medi kor blog...found a link pretty interesting... so i went to take the test -_- sexygage test...
Link Sexygage
Ok my result is... "Hot" 8/10
Line of Heart
Your Line of Heart is a curved line. You are creative and sensitive. Sometimes ruled by emotions, sometimes by imagination. Sometimes you let feelings get in the way of clear thinking, and often for the better.
Shape of Fingertips
The tips of your fingers are round. Sometimes other people seem too slow, so you finish their sentences for them. You are bright and intuitive, with a tendency to stick your neck out too far and getting hurt.
Thumb Flexibility
Based on the flexibility level of your thumb you have a good balance between brains and feelings. Don't think things to death, nor follow emotions over a cliff. Your mind can be changed, but the argument has to be convincing.
Highest Mound
Your highest mound is on the base if your thumb. A people person. Outgoing and going out. Likes to laugh and party. Appreciates good food, good friends, and good drink.
Both men and women agree that confidence and a sense of humor are very important when seeking a date or soul mate. So whether you are looking for true love or simply dating, a confident smile goes a long way.
Lol... hunny gonna hate the last one "highest mould"... -_-.. hehe thats all for today :) I love u hun and bug :P...
Hunny and his niece ^^ He love kids :)
There's no point in hiding anymore, to be fair to him, my friends and me. I would like to say... Jonathan is my boyfriend since 9th May 2006, his blog www.unknown-sky.blogspot.com.
We were friends in the beginning, then slowly we love each other so much i mean we have the same character and both pursing for real love. Others might be thinking it's a hard relationship but those who love me will understand i never make harsh decision.
As my 8 yrs relationship just ended not too long ago it's impossible that i fall in love again (that's what i tell myself) but i met him and i love him so much. He gave me concern that i never had before. Care that never had bfore...And he don't mind my body at all...He love what i am and i love what he is.
It's kinda amazing, we can talk non stop and can't leave each other. As he's in UK right now.. and Im in singapore and KL so we can only skype when im off work we will be smsing each other which also spend alot of credit on phone bills during weekend we will be on voice conference which both of us even wear headset to bed..if not both of us will feel uneasy. But that is love, i miss him every hour, every minute and every secound.
I intend to keep it a secret which Jonathan didn't blame me, but i kind to think of it. Since i love him why is it to hide? We wish to spend the rest of the time together and forever, even though one day he don't love me anymore i won't regret because i dare to choose the path i will accept it. He said no one treat him like what i did in his life ever and he never felt so happy bfore which i also feel the same way, thanks dear Im really happy with you.
There would come a time when we have to stop loving someone not because that person started hating us but because we found out that they'd be happier if we let them go. You will know when you really love someone, when you want him to be happy even if their happiness means you are not a part of it.
If someone comes into your life and becomes a part of you but for some reasons he couldn't stay, don't cry too much... just be glad that your paths crossed and somehow she made you happy even for a while.
There are some things that we never want to let it go off... people we never want to leave behind; but keep in mind that letting go is not the end of the world, but rather it is the beginning of a new life. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want him or her to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all he or she has. Remember that the best relationship is when your love for each other is greater than your need for each other.
Two tear drops were floating down the river. One teardrop said to the other, "I'm the teardrop of a girl who loved a man and lost him. "Who are you?" "... I'm the teardrop of the man who regret letting a girl go..." Never let regret form part of your life.
You'll know that you miss someone very much. When every time you think of that person, your heart breaks into pieces and just a quick "Hello" from that person can bring the broken pieces back.
When you love someone, draw a circle around their name instead of a heart because hearts can be broken but circle never end Just a thought: What would you do if the only person who could make you stop crying is the person who makes you cry?
"Every step I took since the moment I could walk was a step towards finding you." You don't want to let go; but it's even more painful to ask someone to stay if you can never make the relationship work out the way it should be. LOVE? it's kind of complicated, but I'll tell you This... The second you're willing to make yourself miserable to make someone else happy, that's love right? If I had the letters "HRT", I can add "EA" to get a "HEART" or a "U" to get "HURT". But I'd rather choose "U" and get "HURT than have a "HEART" without U"
Giving someone all your love is not an assurance that he will love you back. Don't expect love in return, wait for it to grow in his heart, if it doesn't, be contented it grows in you. It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to fall in love with someone but it takes a lifetime to really forget someone you have grown to love.
Recieved a few sms when woke up :P because i got missed :D... So i went back to office around 2am... as there's no credit in my prepaid card...So we talk all the way o.O until now still online.
Heading back to Singapore soon... Hope everyone have a nice holiday..
Jonathan blog in my link :) Just placed it today ^^ cya all...
Me and Peng ^^
Then busy bully peng in guessing game ^^.. hehe of cos i win :p....
Then reach home around 3am..yea i came home early cos my frd waiting for me :D so.. ^^...
Then talk until 8am lol -__- then
Sunday afternoon...
Promise dad will go out with them for dinner so we went Boon Lay to had our dinner o.O... not bad the food is nice :o. But i ate a little cos at night im going drinking can't eat full... Dad and me planned to take pic of all food... but ended up when he recall -_-
Yea we forgot o.O by the time my dad remember food in stomach -_-... My uncle, dad and grandpa...
Then around 6.30pm i rush home first to prepare to go out suppose to reach The Home at 8.30pm..i meet peng 7.45pm at clementi taxi stand cos she dunno how to go... But peng was late... so i come out at 8.00pm instead reached her taxi stand she is not here yet o.O then we were rushing :O mus reach by 9pm...taxi driver speed for us...we know can't make it ler :(... so i sms tell bug..then no choice we took pic o.O...
wow he drive fast but still can't make it :(...
Bug sure wanna kill ppl...peng will like swallow saliva o.O in the end we order bottle... lol then after that vivian came wah the guessing game queen! Not a while she drunk so badly she too happy ler... lol... bug dun need to say -_- drunk ler... hehe cannot post bug pic she will kill me.. i post others ^^
Then bug took the camera and "hahaha vivian ur face sooo funny" So we retake.. o.O..
Weee ^^ hug hug.. im good to hug soo tender LOL!!!...Then unfair they both drunk but i haven't so we order vodka ribena then i vs vivan in guessing game again lol no win no lose i think....n also play with bug ^^... But will be better if next time all gals o.O... Hehe Bug i have fun hehe thanks!!!..
Then went home chat chat with Jonathan :D.. until hmmm morning 7am o.O then sleep woke up at 12 noon lol...his timing is 7 hrs bfore me..so we always play ard with time... hehe ^^ Then went back to KL reached KL around 11.30pm... then i msg roy didi say hi etc...then i go sleep..then realize i can't sleep o.O so i came back...
Ok highest record... voice conference for 12 hrs!!!.. o.O until we didn't realize...hehe we talk alot of things... he is very nice chap those extinct guys...my buddy :D... then i bug him to sleep finally he willing to sleep at his time "4am..".... heheh thats abt all ^^... he will call my mobile when im home and he's awake ^^.... I dunno why i feel very happy... he also shi lian..same as me..so we support each other :)... Hehe take care all :D
Then yesterday was upper body training...after the training is ard 5.30pm had a bad headache..cos didn't sleep well recently... then i did cardio myself for 45mins.. LOL very power!! I thought i will give up after 10 mins -_- i cover the timer with my towel.. and listen to my mp3... then 45mins! Finally... 570 cariodies...not bad huh..then go steam bath then shower...
Went home leech around read magazine do facial.. then fall asleep at 10pm.. wow i sleep very very well... hehe finally... i always toss ard normally but tat night i sleep so well...
Morning realize my comp still the same problem can't read my blog -_- so i change my wallpaper to another link... well those who always read my blog will realize normally my background wasn't big enough... the right side is "white" so i replace with 3 pic hehe... so at least not so bad...tomorrow i will find nice pic to replace that 3 pic lol so bear with it first :p...
Then chatted with sky, elyn, my cousin, my god bro awhile.... then kor say he caught a big homet... below pic...
OMG so big.. tis weekend im coming back to sg... hehe... jus decided.. cos sat dad arrange family dinner o.O maybe he know something happen to me so he do that to make me happy... :)... well i will accept and enjoy ^^... hope friday night can go drink :(... anyway thats all for today..gonna go gym later on.. JIA YOU and all have fun..!
Love Bee
See bug is kinda confused dunno what to do when to meet her frd out for a talk i scare the more she delay she will change her mind so make it this week i can come back de dun worry!!.. Then she tempted me the ktv pub that she went and about the handsome staff there lol -_- Handsome no use for me de :P but can't help i do look at him i agree -_-... But see only mah..Ugly man also see chio bu so ugly gals can see yan dao also mah...
Yesterday was holiday elyn, kor, bug wasn't online o_O wonder how is elyn wanna gossip with her also and kor thanks for the zippo :D i will take good care hehe I like the zippo cos that words carved behind...
BEE
WUV 4 EVER
CON
251294
Thats wat carved at the back of the zippo... Kor pick it from somewhere so lucky n concidence got my name!! so i wan it sooo much hehe he give me so happy :D!!! Bug im waiting for ur update see this weekend u meeting or not -_-.... dang i type type type then heard a fart sound hahaha -_- my collegue outside sleeping on the sofa then he .... -_-
Saw this thing from my dear DD blog...
if one day your gf got into an accident den the doctor told you either u let her die or she will be a vegetable for the rest of her lives , which one will u choose?
Then her bf choose
He will let the gf die cos he doesn't wan the girl to suffer being a vegetable forever.
If me i will make the same decision i will let him/her die... It's true being a vegetable is suffering no emotion anything only the brain is working heart is beating... Why wanna let someone u love suffer like this? Everytime u saw him/her u will feel his/her pain and struggling for life...If im the one going to be vegetable i will rather die and i hope my lover will know wat to do... i dun wan to be burden to him...
Humans mus know when to think and act in a sensible way why i know the way i talk like happy go lucky person but what for showing others ur sadness to let them worried isn't it? I didn't cry or such my tears can't seen to come out...Missing someone wanna forget someone wasn't easy at all...Like bug she doesn't knw wat to do too so she live in deep deep cold hole, looking outside world while she's inside the hole...Outside the hole was having fun, laughter, happiness, love...she can see everything and envy those outside the hole... but she's can't feel it or let them know she's actually still watching and wanna the life outside the hole, trying to struggle out and get a share but she falls each falls make her drop deeper.....
I dunno what i say is true or not but it's a way to describe the feelings i feel from her sadness... As for me... i feel im shaking n shaking... i was forcing myself i can't ill-treated myself anymore... My friend griever have a concept which is exactly what im thinking...
I think I myself in my opinion would shut out from the world until the brain tell me OMG It"S ALL OVER GAMEOVER. Meanwhile think omg what am I gonna do. Nite time surely cannot sleep properly..
Who will go movie with me?
Who will eat breakfast, lunch and dinner with?
What WILL I Do now???
What must I do now???
Gameover man...start all over again.
After that back to work...
Time to heal...
try to forget...
@ nite cry even more
afraid of nite time more??? cannot sleep...
Pretty accurate o.O that is the feeling of "lost of direction".. and humans biggest enemy is urself.. yea im fighting against myself...I know i can't go back but my heart n soul keep wanna to.. .I tell myself i mus be strong i shouldn't let my friends worried... always im the guardian of my friends who is in need and helping them for their sadness why im in the bad state? So i mus be strong and i didn't shed a tears though but someone tell me i break down and cry when im drunk ... I force myself too hard to control my tears.... I dunno which way to go afraid of my future...what will happen to me? Im not in the teenager age anymore... A lot of my frds r happily attached or getting married... I dun wanna be old witch wor but i dun trust love what to do? something like that...
Hahaha -_- today talk so much having headache for the past two days....going gym later on... need to strike more n i promise roy di di liao to wear that mango blouse let him see when i hit my target hehe xiao di so clever set a target for me to reach i will be there... no matter how hard...
Ok on saturday cos i promise my sis long long ago bring her go IKOI but i keep pushing pushing cos im on diet etc... then she kinda sad...it's been for then a year since she go there... so i decided to bring her go and i pop two slimming pills hehe... LUCKILY!!! no increase in my weight haha... cos i eat little -_- she eat alot.. (she won't fat)...ok Ikoi is a jap restaurant at Mirama hotel...it's $28++ per pax which is $30.... and i can 100% guarantee the highest quality 100% freshness ... try one piece of salmon u will know what i mean but it's always fully booked so book beforehand...Some pics i took .... have fun!!! especially Bug!
Another complimentary, my sister love this taste very nice unique taste...
Above two are complimentary too.Those are not in buffet menu so only one set per table... I love the teapot soup..It taste sooo nice...hard to describe how it taste but guarentee all love it...
Ok then we start ordering the buffet stuff...
Ok that's all for today :D!!!. Bug sure kill me if these make her drool o.O hehehehe evil!..
Boring so talking to dd, my cousin, aug etc... then me n dd gone crazy LOL he make his bf bcome babe...then i transform dd too lol dun wanna put her later she put me in her blog -_- better bully those without blog..
Miss bug, peng, dd, ying, lan, roy, elyn and all leh sob sob wanna drink sooo much -___- and hang out hehe.....
Pictures ^^ of my dears!!! Since today is holiday i dun think lan will read my blog today and i will del it tomorrow wwahahaha evil!!.. Love all :D ...
Lan lan gal version and DD... 
Ok this one is sooo cool make by DD his gf... then hair edit by me ^^!!! OMG sexy
Ok i know it's very wu liao -_- dd started it so sigh blame her :P... Bad headache i think i shouldn't be like this anymore should kinda wake up alot of work to do this morning stress etc..Hope years pass by faster happy times or unhappy times doesn't really matter... hOPE all have a nice day ^^ Lovee Bee
Finally i reached... The crew... saw them sitting near the door LOL... first thing i say is SORRY!!! im late -_-... Loner was "Wah how can u late...so bad lol" -_-... Then sit down chat chat awhile sms elyn she say she's coming down to find me yea she know im not in good state recently... then i drink loveless concoction hmm vodka + gin with coke.. i was like very thirsty -_- keep drinking n drinking... by the time i know it i already drink like 10 cups... in 1 hr -_- and im not done yet ... Then elyn came sing awhile.. too bad she's kinda shy to sing but practice more song next time can sing with them...
They ordered lotsa food... but i reject to eat no appetite then im on strong diet since i gyming so hard dun wanna eat fried things.. then was force to eat a nugget... saigon pass me the plate of nugget.. i shake head eh it's ok im not hungry .. "Lai eat one no snatch -stare-"... LOL no choice take one piece -_-...
Then drink drink drink... when elyn came she say the place is nice so i point to her the place we sit last time.. the last floor... which is very cosy! Then loner "Ya ya so cosy she fall asleep that time there" -_-... then after that im smsing with bug talking then she already half drunk that time... lol... then lied down at one corner at the back.. they saying "anti social gal" LOL -_- i can't sit at there with liquor i will keep drinking n drinking thats why i hide there... Then loner say "haha start liao start liao she's falling asleep again"... then recieved sms from lan lan... asking me am i drinking i say yea.. and tell him the place then he come down.. I already very seh... when he call me he already reached.. he say he at downstair watch soccer... so i tell my frd i go down find him..then i walk to stairs... heard "Im here la" O.O imagine i didn't saw him -_- omg then drink..mix him a cup...
Actually today i should be the photographer but end up i didn't take pic... elyn was the one taking using my cam.. omg i can't imagine what im doing that day... lan elyn medi know im drunk... then lan keep stealing my pour away :(.. i pour n mix then i drink one sip he snatch away SOB! then end up in the end bev baipang mar keep the new bottle of vodka..and dun let us drink(already finish one bottle of vodka and gin)... when i say can la can la then they pour a bit bit ..then i happy sit back my seat to drink lan steal away -_- and switch into 7up to me :S saying this one is vodka... or fixed my vodka with his 7up then become so thin -_-.....Playing 5 10 with medi first time i lose so badly guess im ready drunk... -_-... ok post some pics hehe.. hmm very ugly i look like ghost well its ok -_- i can't really remember wat happen...
Hor, im in this picture... i dun even know im inside when they taking im talking to lan lan that time... The one with the mic is loner... jacky cheung voice he is ge shen orh... the one standing is saigon... Guy with specs is mars the lady is beverly...
Bday bor my god bro and me ...
Also got pictures which i took with mars, baipang and loner and i dun remember i take pic with them -_- Ok but i remember i took pic with my buddy lan!! LOL cos we took alot then he keep snatching cam from me wanna del he say his face look weird then i keep holding on the cam lalala ^^ but in the end -_- i realize those pic he that he say he look weird all deleted..argggghhh... Well left 2 pic... two pic which he look nicer so unfair -_-...
Haha my buddy lan and me...
Ok this pic i look gay -_- but kinda funny see his face n neck color? red liao LOL who call him kope my drink -_-... Then to my shock i realize this pic... dunno took by who... -_- but looks like i reach my limit... from that pic...
Ok honestly i dunno we play until wat time... feel kinda bad... kor tell me elyn was kinda worried abt me.. i remember go toilet with lan n elyn then cry alittle -_-... then the rest i can't really remember i was thinking did i do anything funny that day or say anything funny -_- later i ask lan :s... and how i go home hmm i think medi n lan help me get a cab can't remember... Sorry elyn :( make u worried.....
Think i mus control alittle i have been clubbing for the past 6 weekends i think -_- non stop...my mum n dad complaining say im home with so strong liquor smell everyday... I jus wanna be childish awhile more to heal.. then i will be back to normal i think... Drinking non stop is not a good way but i can't find a better way now... from those pic i realize i need to eat oats for a week plus gym alot more o.O.. very fat :( tues wed thurs now... then eat oats for lunch milk for dinner hehe maybe will be better okie! i will try tat this week!!...
